This is the first time I would live without almost all of the familiar people in another strange country. In fact, I had considered before that life in the first month might not be favorable, but I could not imagine how big the changes were. Everything was irregular and out of my control. Even if I told myself that all of these would be OK, I could not comfort my heart at all, for I did not know where my future was. But, the only thing I knew was that I had to change myself, for I had no capability to change the environment.
The first thing I did was writing emails to my cousin who had a job and one of my seniors who studied and lived in the same place as I. They told me this sentence, “you are feeling a tough life, but this is because you are progressing.”
Then I kept these words engraved in my mind, and I began to face everything de novo. For example, I started to compel myself to smile to classmates and insert words in their conversation. And I tried to do my best in basketball club and not skip training even if I got extremely exhausted in the evenings. In the dormitory, I visited the others to have fun. And I even chatted and played with them to 5 a.m. at weekend. Friends came to my room, too. At the same time, I attended every activity that I could participate in, such as speech contests, teaching classes to secondary school students about China and so on.
Simultaneously, I had never forgotten the importance of academics. Thanks to the customs of the dormitory, I could study till 11 p.m. in the cafeteria with others. And then, I came back to my room, continuing doing my assignments and materials till midnight.
Of course, there were a number of troubles and problems when I started to do all of these, such as unwilling to get up early in the morning or strong craving to lie down on the bed after a tough day. But I always recalled those words and then I got pleasure to compel my tired body to move.
So at last, I made it. I became an important part of the class, accomplished most of the activities, and I even changed to another more challenging club. But most important of all, although I do much more than I could in the first couples of days, I don’t feel the toughness of life any more. Instead, I can see my happiness and success after it. Then I feel great passion to achieve the end. And this is the most significant thing I learned from the dark days.
Thanks to my cousin and senior. Otherwise, I can never adhere to my plans. Thanks to those desperate days, or else I would not be who I am now.
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