1 o'clock in the moring

Hello, world

What should I do next? Even though you know the past of them, you have no power to change them. So think it in another way, they cannot change what we had either.

One thing, then another. But where should I be? To be a boy is easy, according to "Ms. Pamphlet". Just do your job hard, and eventually you will get all you want anyway. But why do I keep doing things meaningless, or keep asking myself what should I do as myself? I really have no idea where I am, who I am, etc. I cannot find myself in this biggest city in the world. I have nobody to rely on, no friends here, even no ambition in my heart.

Maybe I just should do sth with others, or push myself to do it. I do not have troubles communicating with others, but I cannot find any pleasure while I am talking with others. So I see, here is the problem.

Watching FRIENDS is just a pathetic way to escape from the real life, I finally realized. So is eating and cooking food. I wish I could forget all of the craps which I couldn't and keep bothers me. But there are beautiful memories on the other side. And, here is what I should do next.

So I see, I really know everything, but I just cannot do them.

This is a blog. But in my opinion, this place is just a diary book for me. No ones gonna see these. I just write this for myself, to memories what I thought right now because not like notebooks, this blog will never be full, and I cannot stick to writing things on the same notebook.

This is a really weird place. Oh wait a minute... maybe I am weird.