1点半

看完blog之后竟然心里面很平静很平静，也许是刚跑完步回来后大脑还没有清醒，也许是因为太清醒而不会胡思乱想了，也许这才应该是我我真正应该的状态。不能不说体育活动对思想健康很有帮助。

还有一门德语，之后还得在图书馆找report的书，然后再去コンパ，当晚再奋斗备第二天的课，然后再花一晚上加第二天一白天的时间去完成report，虽然只有6页，但是对现在没有一点头绪的自己来说还是觉得很有麻烦的。不管了，就这么一点一点的过吧，日子不就是这么一点点过来的嘛。明天的训练还能不能去了呢。。。够呛吧。。。又得编谎请假了

Forgetting Someone in 8 Steps: Mending a Broken Heart

Need help getting over a break up? This relationship advice can help when mending a broken heart. Here's how to forget someone in 8 steps.

Romantic relationships can be really complicated and end up in a bad breakup. The worst thing about these "sad endings" is that at least one heart ends up broken. Getting over a break up can be tough. Sometimes, it's even hard for both sides--after all, breaking up is not easy to do. It hurts to throw away your story with someone--all the good memories and the dreams and plans you two had for the future. Mending a broken heart takes time and patience. But you must face the fact that your heart is broken. It doesn't matter if you wish things could be different or if you even regret something you did. It doesn't matter if you think you shouldn't have become that involved with that person or if you're angry and looking for revenge. The fact is: Your heart is broken! This relationship advice can help.

Even if the only thing you want to do is win your partner back - and by the way, if you're interested in doing this then I strongly recommend The Magic of Making Up - when a relationship is truly over, it's time to begin the healing process.

So now what? Are you going to sit and cry for the rest of your life or do you intend to do something? Was that ending your fault or are you not the one to blame? Is there something you can do to fix it? Is there something you should stop and think about so you can act in a better way the next time 'round? Is mending a broken heart even possible? Of course it is! With this relationship advice, getting over a break up is possible. There are many things you can do to heal a broken heart! And the best thing is: It all depends on you! Here's how to forget someone in 8 steps.

Step 1:

Cry out everything you have to cry about! When we get hurt, it's normal (and good) to cry. Don't ever think you're being weak for crying and don't feel embarrassed because of it! It's normal and it's good! When you cry, you let go of part of your anger and hurt so you can feel less heavy. You can lock yourself in a room, if you want to, and put on some sad music...but let yourself feel the pain and cry so you can let it go. The main thing here is: Get rid of the pain! Just let her go!

Step 2:

Get busy! When you're trying to get someone out of your head, you need to put other things inside of it. In other words...get busy! It doesn't matter how, you just need to get distracted. Go to a movie, watch a play, travel. It doesn't matter what are you going to do--the important thing is to find something to do. Find a hobby, find something you enjoy doing, something to keep your mind busy. If your mind is busy, it doesn't have time or space to think about the person you're trying to forget.

Step 3:

Spend some time with your friends. Friends are always great to have in this kind of situation! Friends can make you feel good about yourself and get you distracted very easily. They will certainly make you laugh and make you see that you're way more important than you think! The only warning is: Ask them not to talk about the person you're trying to forget. If they start bringing the topic up in every conversation, you won't be able to forget, and instead of making you laugh, they're going to make you cry. So be honest and ask them not to talk about it!

Step 4:

Avoid the person! Try not to go to places you know you can meet that person. When you're trying to forget someone and you two keep seeing each other, it gets hard to get over it. If you meet him/her somewhere, just be nice and kind, but find an excuse to go away as fast as you can! If you work or study with him/her and you can't avoid seeing him/her, just try not to look and not to talk too much. Just be gentle and keep busy all the time so you won't have excuses to look at him/her or to chat.

Step 5:

Go out and see some different faces! Being at home gives you more time to think about it, which makes the process even more difficult. So even if you're not feeling excited or you're in a bad mood, just put on your best clothes, best shoes, best smile, call some friends and go somewhere nice where you can dance, drink, listen to some music. And the most important: See some different faces! When you go out, you notice that the person you're trying to forget is not the only one who's got a perfect smile and an amazing voice...thank god, there are other interesting people around the world, too!

Step 6:

Avoid every kind of romantic thing! If you're trying to forget someone, you'd better not watch romantic movies or listen to romantic songs...it makes you feel bad and you will certainly remember the person you're trying to get rid of. It doesn't matter if it's a song you love or if it's playing on the radio...just change the station or do something else! Put on some happy songs, dancing songs, watch some comedies, terror movies, whatever...you just need to avoid the romantic things for now!

Step 7:

Take good care of yourself. Women tend to run for some kind of self-destruction when they're hurt. If we break up our perfect relationship, then we have no reason to get our nails done anymore and the only thing that gives us comfort is chocolate and sugar. That way, the only thing we do is to become less attractive and lessen our self-confidence. So if you're hurt, just try to use your pain for yourself instead of against you. Go to the gym, work out a lot, get your nails and hair done...do whatever you can so you can feel more pretty and confident!

Step 8:

Accept the process! You can be really strong and it's still going to hurt. The process takes time and you have to accept that! You can't hope to forget in 2 days someone you loved for 2 years...and you can't pretend to be strong if you feel like crying. Just face your pain and accept that it's not easy and it's going to take some time. When you're patient with yourself and your situation, things tend to get easier...

Well, of course, forgetting someone is not easy to do nor is it easily explained in just 8 steps. But there are some things that make the process a lot smoother. As I said, it takes time and it's hard but I'm sure you can do it! The only thing that is really, really important is: It all depends on you! Don' ever forget that! If you want to forget someone, then you will, there is no doubt! Even if it takes a long time, even if you have to be really strong...you will be! In that kind of situation we usually find out that we are a lot stronger than we give ourselves credit for! So believe that. Believe that, take a deep breath and move on! Your life's waiting for you, baby!

自分が敏感すぎる

自分にはもうぜんぜん関係ないのに、何でいつもいつもあいつのこと考えてるの。すっかり前向きでいればいいのに、どうして、どうして。。。

もうお前には関係ないよ、どういう風に生活するのか、どんなアルバイトしてるのか、どんなに生活に苦しんでるのか。。。全部他人事なんだ。

これから自分の人生もあいつには関係ないし、重なりもないはずだし。。。

またへんなこと考えてしまった。前向き、前向き。。。

dream

自己总是特别喜欢做梦，不管是晚上的正经的梦，还是像刚才那样下午的打盹时的梦，还是我只要闭上眼睛就可以想任何事情的那种假的梦。有时候自己会把梦境跟现实弄混。其实也有可能那里是现实而这里才是梦境，who knows. 也许我做太多梦了。。。还记得小时候从楼上跳下去的梦，不断向上走啊走却总是走着走着就到楼下的梦，在小学操场上滑翔的梦，不断奔跑的梦（绕着圈奔跑，或者漫无目的的奔跑，或者比赛似的奔跑）。。。还有很多这种很一般的没有特定场景的梦，但是一想的话就想不起来了。再就是比较特别的梦了，一般都会有特定的现实事件作为原因，比如分手后的那段时间不停地做的特别真实的梦，比如写作业的梦（...），应该还有老友记的梦。。。

maybe i am just a dream boy, or just boy full of absurd dreams...

最好的我

龚：我不在乎什么天长地久

我只在乎你想不想要拥有

一颗真心和温暖的手

在身后 陪 你微笑 或泪流

我不在乎你下次会来呆多久

我只在乎这心动前所未有

我不会走 Coz I Love You So

献给你最好的我

就算只是朋友

房：还 想和你做朋友

想念your big brown eyes

可爱的lips I wanna kiss

I miss想一直牵着你的手

但我还年轻 心不定 又能 怎么办

（龚：boy,有什么话开不了口）

No worries 我只是用脑想过头

拥有了又想自由 自由后又想拥有

（龚：等待着 空逛着 有话别保留

他们说刮风的时候 你总选择要一个人颤抖）

Guess You'll Never Know　Coz

I'll Never Show （龚：为了谁你不自由）

龚：我不在乎什么天长地久

我只在乎你想不想要拥有

一颗真心和温暖的手

在身后 陪 你微笑 或泪流

我不在乎你下次会来呆多久

（房：拥有了又想自由）

我只在乎这心动前所未有

（房：自由又想拥有）

我不会走 `cause I love you so

献给你最好的我

就算只是朋友

房：行 不过别人把你追走

也行 不过自己暂时把你拥有

（龚：你低头喝着酒 别只顾喝着酒）

做朋友是保护你最坏也是最好的借口

龚：我明白要你爱是荒谬的要求

我明白有些默契我必须要自守

只是你眼眸 走漏了一种

Baby Baby想爱不能爱的哀求

房：嘿，好久不见

仲记得你中意听（粤）

不如不见 记得以前和你分享

我的担心 烦恼还有我的骄傲

但现在我们之间

却变得越来越有礼貌

When we broke up

你的朋友一定拍手说好

现在你身边的他们大概都不喜欢我

但是我还是我 我还一样能活

The reason why 我决定离开

There is only one reason Why

`Cause I know you deserve

better and more

没了我大家信不过的那个星座

你一定要好好生活 别想太多

为什么我写了这首歌 只想用心对你说

I love you and I still

do I love you now

But it insists in a different

way if I may, hey

`Cause so I know you

used to love me more

But now there`s a friend

我知道当我离开世界的那一天

你一定会 流泪 在我的 照片 前面

And I`ll do the same

Not `cause I want to met,

Cause you have always

been like my family to me

这不是秘密

但喺你身边既会有 几多人知（粤）

流过的泪 说过的话 仍在我心中

虽然已经失去你（粤）

以后（粤） 如果在街上碰到你和你心爱的那个谁

唔好避（粤） 我会微笑 带礼貌地 欣然面对

I wish you luck, wish

you health, wish you love

with this smile and hug

I wish you luck, wish

you health, wish you love

with this smile and his hug

龚：我不在乎你下次会来呆多久

我只在乎这心动前所未有

I haven't go `cause I love you so

献给你最好的我

房：就算是朋友

龚：我不在乎什么天长地久

我只在乎你想不想要拥有

一颗真心和温暖的手

房：在身后陪你微笑或泪流

龚：我不在乎你下次会来呆多久

我只在乎这心动前所未有

我不会走 `cause I love you so

献给你最好的我

就算只是朋友

房：Nice to meet you

I am very happy to have

met you in my life

谢谢你

in here

I wish love and health

Hope to see you again

Goodbye

怎么说呢，有点if ever的感觉，很清新的情歌

i love you

还是让人无法不感动的声音，小田和正。。。

作詞：尾崎豊

作曲：尾崎豊

I love you 今だけは悲しい歌聞きたくないよ
I love you 逃れ逃れ辿り着いたこの部屋
何もかも許された恋じゃないから
二人はまるで捨て猫みたい
この部屋は落葉に埋もれた空き箱みたい
だからおまえは小猫の様な泣き声で

きしむベッドの上で優しさを持ちより
きつく躰　抱きしめあえば
それからまた二人は目を閉じるよ
悲しい歌に愛がしらけてしまわぬ様に

I love you 若すぎる二人の愛には触れられぬ秘密がある
I love you 今の暮しの中では辿り着けない
ひとつに重なり生きてゆく恋を
夢みて傷つくだけの二人だよ
何度も愛してるって聞くおまえは
この愛なしでは生きてさえゆけないと

きしむベッドの上で優しさを持ちより
きつく躰　抱きしめあえば
それからまた二人は目を閉じるよ
悲しい歌に愛がしらけてしまわぬ様に

それからまた二人は目を閉じるよ
悲しい歌に愛がしらけてしまわぬ様に

骑车

很喜欢骑车的感觉。在国内的时候没有自己的自行车，所以其实从小学之后很长时间以来一直没有体验到骑车的快感，即便一直很想，甚至连做梦都想过。来到日本之后终于有了自己的自行车，所以自己着实爽了一把。在京都的时候并没有骑过太远的车，现在想起来其实有点遗憾。只是最后要走之前跟DH骑车上了一次山，从山上不刹车直接冲下来的快感至今还记忆犹新（虽然当时车把都松动了，很危险）。其他的时候绝大多数时间都只是学校和宿舍的两点一线。超市离的很近没有必要骑车，图书馆也没总是去，倒是去商场的时候用了几次。来到东京之后，也同样买了台hummer,虽然自己没有保养好，还没到半年的车就已经生锈了，但是自己更加喜欢了骑车。每次心情不好或者想转换下心情的时候骑车是个很好的手段。今天骑到了西边Mac的地方，之前还骑到过不知道什么的东边的地方（差一点迷路）。但是每次骑车回来的时候心情都很舒畅，觉得不会再去愁什么事情了--身体的运动的确对心情的转换有很大帮助。一边骑车一边大声的唱着林俊杰的歌曲，从来记不住歌的名字，歌词的内容，但是自己还是会随着自己的心情选择一些曲子去唱（自己也不会知道怎么进行的筛选）。

考试来了，又得好好学习了。。。

hold on

Breath, deep breath.

Tomorrow is another day

Do not live in the past

プロポーズ大作戦

之前看的时候忘记具体是什么时候了，应该是2月份吧，也可能是3月份，总之貌似blog里面没有留下痕迹，所以无从考证了。Anyway，今天又看了一遍，又是感动了一遍。总觉得自己在这种くだらない的地方总是那么的容易屈服，容易感动。

不想往自己身上对号，也没法跟自己对号，因为基本上是完全不一样的。也许最近感触太多了吧，感情特别容易一触而发。陈果的那堂课也是，昨天看到tudou上新恒结衣的小さな恋の歌的sony版mv之后突发兴致下载プロポーズ大作戦全集的时候也是，今天花了一下午的宝贵的时间从头到尾浪费了6个小时光阴也是，总觉得自己的感情一发不可收拾。也许就是因为这样才落到今天的我这个地步吧。自己还是那么的あまい，还是没法真正理性的对待一切。本来冷静地想一想，不可能再走下去的感情，现在回头看的话还是那么的美。本来不可能的情节，却总是让自己一次一次的感同身受。やり直したい？也许吧，也许妖精在我面前的话我也会选择再做一次吧。

从分手的那天开始一直埋在心底，但是从没清扫过的角落，今天第一次被这部剧深深地刺痛到了。自己真的暂时没法去喜欢和爱一个人了。いつか絶対好きな人できるって、自分でわかるけど、全部わかってるけど、もうしばらく好きになる気持ちが本当になくなった。目に入るのはあまりにもつらいから、そうするしかないのよ。友達なんかなりたいけど、自分の心の奥にずっと触れてはいけないところがあるから、会う度に、話すたびに、その奥のところが死にそうくらい痛いから、そうするしかないのよ。

也许想DH那样，玩游戏来忘却喜欢的人和讨厌的事情也是一种好的方法。原来的话，我更喜欢找人说一说，但是现在发现那样只能让自己更加的想不开，同时也只能让别人去承受或同样的或不一样的压力，所以还是自己来吧。自己不是那种能潇洒的说谢谢你再见的那种人，其实谁也不能。以前的那些给自己说或者给自己洗脑的文字终究还是没有真正的效果。一旦发生了的事情不是那么简简单单就能忘记的，也不是简简单单就能改变的。即使妖精让我重新做一次的话结果也许还是一样的，人的感情不是那么容易变迁的。

最后人还是得向前看，毕竟明天还是美好的。把プロポーズ大作戦放进硬盘的深处，就像把这份爱恋深藏在自己的心底一样。再翻出来的时候，会是什么样呢？文件的话应该不会变化吧，只要硬盘还好，至于自己的心底应该就不清楚了，但是我觉得保质时间会挺长吧。